It’s time.

It’s time for a drink and let’s talk. My book is coming.

I am beyond excited to announce that my third book, “Whiskey Theorem”, will be released on October 10th, 2017, 8 weeks from now!

PRE-ORDERS are available now! The link is below and in my bio!

Secure your copy now!

2 1/2 years I started this book, and it is amazing to see it coming out now. A lot of work went into it. @jr4287, @you__have__mel, @wordsbyirahcoreen, and @the_drowning_siren helped me in the writing of this book, all the while @mitch_grn has ingeniously crafted its cover art and chapter break designs.

A contest for signed copies may ensue. I am aiming for at least one copy signed by everyone who contributed in its making.

Thank you all for everything! I hope you guys enjoy this book and that I made everyone proud. I wish I could have written more. There’s enough bourbon for everyone.

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Whiskey Theorem

There’s enough bourbon for everyone.

My third book, "Whiskey Theorem", will be releasing soon. Pre-orders are still undetermined. If I get enough likes, shares, and requests for it, I'll make it so.

There will be a few familiar poems and many never before seen, altered and updated prose writings, two short stories that will hopefully drop your jaws, and 5 poets featured in collaborations.

Thank you all for the support and love. I hope I make you all proud with this one.

There's enough bourbon for everyone.

My Friend

The winds have slowed the earth, every ocean receded, and light has been choked out from our sky. Clouds thunderously begin to collide. It feels as though we are alone without you, despite walking into each other, aimlessly wondering in blinding shock. Hollowed husks, we march to a gray dusk, wishing you would come back sweetly.

Your pain has taken you away, and we had what ailed you, but we were silent. Death called your name, and you answered. We called for you, and it was too late. I'm sorry. We're sorry. Love may never bring you back home. But know that you were loved, quite so, more than you could ever imagine.

The light that is your voice has showed us the way when there was only darkness in our hearts. When our lives became painful—almost too painful to bear—you were a shoulder for us to cry on. At the click of a button you were always there for us. You saved us from our own wrongful resolutions, but we didn't save you.

Although, there was life in your words, the seeds you planted for us to find. This world will never be the same without you. Hear our song, the one with tears strumming the cords of a broken guitar, a breathless voice into a hanging mic, and a single seat in the audience…for you.

Yet again you have given us a second chance. One that came at a cost, but it will not go thankless. A break in the storm has settled the ground. And love has brilliance once more, through the nightfall.

You have shown the world the light one more time.

It’s Not Over. 

IMG_6291Once seeped in, a dark void that can crack open our hearts, pulling us into a blackness that will consume all. An eternal end. Although, there is a way to stop it from ever spreading, festering within. There is a moment when the light inside will decide to either fight back, or fade into a structurally unstable memory. We think letting go will help with the pain, the misery. However, that is what will break us beyond repair. Excepting the evil from the outside to infect our insides. Tragically, there is no coming back from it. Forevermore over.

It will not stop us. The end is not now, not yet. Remember the voice in the back of your mind that rang your soul that told you to stand up for what is right, when there is only everything that is wrong around us? That is the Light; the thing that separates us from the demons that lurk in the shadows. Our Light, the fighting angst that will not go gently into the night, will hit back with a vengeance, much, much harder than the dark ever could.

Perhaps, we evolved over time this way: allowing the wretched of the world soak in, just so we could learn how tough we really are, what we’re made of, how far we are willing to go down that stormy path before we turn back and return to the passion that once fueled us. It will again, and again charge us to the end.

This, this darkness, it isn’t our end. We decide what our end is, not the grueling blackness. It may seep into our bones, and leak out in a vapor that suffocates us by surprise. Let it.

When things come easy, we soften up. Staying hardened helps remind us what we went through to be here today. You are here, and now take a breath. Life is a journey, and we are all in it together. It’s not over yet, not until you choose otherwise.

Humans or Animals?

I have never been stunned by words before in life, until today.

Earlier, I overheard someone spewing inappropriate and extremely hateful, racist language amongst others. Another from the group confronted said belligerent one of being rude and “racist.”

In a burst of outrage, the one replied with, “I’m ‘racist’? How?! I’m Black. I can’t be racist.” Awkward silence flooded everyone out of fear from making things worse, and kept their thoughts to themselves due to adding to the already ugly conflict.

This, this is how hate grows, persists, and never heals. No one group or race is exempt from hate, superiority, bigotry, or silence towards another person. If we do tit-for-tat on everything, we won’t ever be whole again, and more suffering will ensue.

Throughout history, every race, age, color, religion, ethnicity, nationality, etc, have all gone through slavery, genocide, and suffrage by another at some point. That is not an excuse, nor a reason to proceed unjust acts, by anybody.

Demanding eye for an eye only leaves the world blind, says M. K. Gandhi. I believe this greatly. Making and wishing oppression and suffocation upon others only brews more to be returned.

I grew up in a town being outnumbered racially, and was only bullied by two particular groups. Do I hate the races? No. Do I think my lineage is more nobel than theirs? No. Do I harbor any hard feelings towards those individuals? No, not really. We were kids. We grew up.

Hate requires energy and determination to keep the flame alive. I don’t have time, the fuel, or the will to stick around to keep such fires burning.

The best thing to do in a situation of racial injustice–whether towards you or another–is to respond with kindness and a smile. How would you feel if you wanted a rise from someone, baiting a trap, and then they do not fall for it and make you look like the repulsive slim?

However, there is a difference from doing nothing and being proactive. Set things equally, not one-sided, even in the process for progress. Equality from the start through to the end.

You are not better than me, and I am not better than you. It is disgusting to think this in such a way.

Violence does not work. It hurts the cause, sets the progress back further, and births more hate to fester more evil later.

I do not see BLM, LGBT, Feminists, pro-gun, or any other groups. I see humans–“Earthicans” – Al Gore, ‘Futurama’. We need titles to define ourselves, but how they have divided and segregated us is unimaginable. But it has happened.

We should reform how we see ourselves, and see others. I know straight people who want equal rights for gays; non-gun people supporting self-defense; white people wanting equality and tranquility with black people; and men realizing how toe-to-toe women can be.

We all want peace, an even chance at the world and its riches, and love. Let’s stop feeding this notion of “winning the race alone, for there is only 1st place,” but instead consider the philosophy of helping each other across the finish line.

We live in the 21st century, for crying out loud, where the world is being molded in a way it has never be formed to ever before. The cure for cancer that has ravaged life is right around the corner, we have found Earth-like planets among the ocean of stars we can move to, same sex marriage is legal and historically most accepted, vegan meat without ever touching an animal, filtering straws to provide clean drinking water for anyone in parched need, we can print a car from a machine that only costs a few hundred dollars (USD) in materials to make, and so much more beautiful advancements socially and technologically. But we are too caught up on childish, schoolyard bullshit to stop and marvel over these amazing accomplishments.

There were reports of people fainting at the unveiling of the first working lamp using electricity. And no one can even bat an eyelash at these achievements?!

So, let’s shape it into the utopia we have all dreamed of and wish for from the movies by being the bigger beings of not allowing this age-old tradition of humans: disliking others’ difference out of fear.

We were handed the world in its state of disarray by our parents who could not solve the issues our grandparents aided in (but did not start), and it is up to us to clear the turmoil from the air.

I am ashamed my daughter has to grow up in the world with how it is currently acting. Children do not know what is going on, this is all taught and passed on. Are you proud of your kids, the next generation, to carry this on their shoulders because we were not decent enough of human beings to fix?

The difference is in us to make for the better. We all deserve a happy ending.

Now, let’s go out and do it.

Introductory: Promise

This is me, who I really am.

Medicine and writing are natural companions.” – Kevin Patterson.

 

Hello, my name is Ben.

I, like everyone else in the world, have a story. Before I get into what I will be promising to do from here on out, I would like to introduce myself so those who read this knows where the words are coming from.

My full name is Benjamin Albert Browning, born in the famous Palm Springs, Ca and lived my whole life of 24 years in a town just 9 miles north called Desert Hot Springs, Ca. Other than watching the great iconic movies from the 50’s to the 90’s, I spent a lot of time playing outside. Baseball influenced me greatly growing up, as well as playing other sports. My family is filled with highly educated and wealthy people. However, my parents I were not. My father a mechanic and my mother a dog trainer for the blind, I had fun like most kids, but I did have difficulties. I know what it is like to go to bed hungry, uncertain if I will get bullied at school, and Saturday morning cartoons could not come quickly enough.

Academically I was always within the top 5 in elementary, but struggled with reading, somehow. My spelling and writing were above average, I just was not able to read well. However, in middle school, I was taken aside out of class to take a “special reading test.” The results were clear to the staff. I was diagnosed with severe dyslexia. That was the answer to my problem. Ironic, right? Well, the irony will come later.

Passing through middle school and high school, academics bored me because they were too easy. Baseball was all that challenged me. I struggled transitioning from little league to high school ball. Every day, during season and in the off-season, when I got home from practice or school, I practiced at home–throwing a baseball against my brick wall with a duct-taped strike zone. Tirelessly trying harder, and harder, and harder.

I became better in every aspect of the game. I had to, or I would not be the best; my goal. One year after graduating high school with a 3.6 GPA and in the top 60 out of 417 of my class, I went from throwing 80 mph to 89 mph–barely professional speed. Maybe it was because I was 6’2 at the age of 17. A local scout that worked with the Kansas City Royals. They were interested in signing me as an outfielder and pitcher to their AAA team. Unfortunately, before I could make the trip to Fresno, Ca to sign the contract, myself and 3 friends were in a terrible car crash.

Thankfully, everyone survived with minor injuries, except for me. Head and arm injuries ended my chances of ever playing professional baseball again. Nauseously painful headaches became as common as breathing. I had them every day, even now I still suffer from them. Since baseball was not a career path for me anymore after being a dream since I was six years old, continuing college was my next choice. Military was another option, however, it went out the door just like baseball did. It did not matter that I scored a 92 on the ASVAB test, no branch would take me after sustaining my lifelong injuries.

A month after the car crash, I continued college in my pursuit of becoming a nurse, thanks to the heavy influence my grandmother gave me from her nursing experience, in addition to my already established fondness of the human biology and its resiliency. Our bodies can endure, adapt, and survive a lot of brutal punishment mentally and physically, it is amazing. Two years later, a blessing in disguise changed my life forever.

On July 15th, 2012 I became a father to a wonderful little girl.  1 year in, with my daughter and school, I could not afford both. So, I made a risky decision and switched my field of study from General Nursing to Literature. It was cheaper and faster to graduate, fortunately for me. Subsequently, my family did not see eye-to-eye on my choice. “It won’t pay the bills”, “It’s not a real career”, and “Stop this act and get a real job”, my family has said to me. Their disapproval and lack of support has not only been extremely hurtful, but also motivating.

Now, 2 1/2 years later, I have 2 books published (“Beautiful Nightmares” and “Love’s Syntax”), 16 articles published across five websites, poems featured on 2 websites, poems published in “The Summer Solstice” collection, and I also did the cover art for a band called, “Crow Effect” for their new album along with a custom poem to be on the front cover art and wrote my first 2 songs ever for them to be produced…two months ago. Adding to all of this, I am also working on 5 short stories that be published.

On Facebook and Instagram, I am known as B. A. Hunter (and his evil half M. E. Hunter, like a Jekyll and Hyde sort of thing), my pen name. Through this pseudonym I have created, many have said my writing reminds them of the legendary Ernest Hemingway and Charles Bukowski. Of course I do not see it, however I will take the complements to better myself and try to invent my own style as they did themselves in their time.

I have lost much sleep doing all of my writing. Mostly waiting until my family goes to be before I start at it, next the housework, then the writing, and sleep would only happen if I were lucky enough to get a few hours. Writing has become my medicine; expressing myself in ways I could not before, like many others have before me. Being the black sheep in my family, I choose to continue my “real career” and do more each and every day. All of this brings me to my promise. I would like to regularly post and blog about short stories and pieces of mine that will be exclusively for here, but copyrighted.

I am sorry, I must explain the irony I mentioned at the beginning of all of this. A writer…dyslexic… I am a dyslexic writer. Of course, some may see this as my destiny determined at such an early age and I “did not see it” then, but it was a happy coincidence through a series of events that were, at the time, unseemly, but now everything is where it should be, and I am happy to be here.

I hope you like what I have to write, and I wish I could have written more.